Sunday, February 28, 2016

Monday February 29th

Readings

I am constantly amazed by Jesus' desire to serve and to love the poor. He never wavers from his vision and from his mission. It is a constant appeal to care for, love and look after the marginalized. Whats amazing is that this message was so radical and threatening that he was killed. Its the same message that was delivered to the poor in El Salvador. Jesus desires such a radical sense of love. It is a love that is beyond our comprehension but it is also a love that really challenges us to look past our short comings and the short comings of others and to see the presence of the body within. This is really hard to do with people that challenge our vision or grate against our own understanding of love and relationship. And yet we must see past the lies and deceit and see the image of God in which they were created. This is my challenge for the week.
Fr. Lucas shared the key theme in these readings today is reconciliation and especially that our God is merciful and patient -- I would add, even with our less than fertile choices and sometimes barren stupidities.  This is blatantly clear with the parable of the fig tree that has yet to bare fruit after 3 years and is taking up garden soil and precious nutrients.  The owner tells the gardener to cut it down but he begs for one more year -- God's patience with us in our barren lives.

I think we can take this parable one step further because the gardener says that he will take special care to nurture and fertilize the tree during that coming year.  Maybe it is a wild twist, but I believe we are truly called to nurture each other.  Out goal is not to simply do good and to get ourselves to heaven.  I believe we are all in this together.  We are the Body of Christ and we must fertilize, prune and support each other so that the Body of Christ flourishes and we can all reach our heavenly goal.  It has been said that a spouse' goal is to get his/her spouse to heaven -- or it takes an entire village to raise a child.  It does and our church is only as strong as the weakest link.  We need to seek out the weak link and strengthen it, build it up with encouragement and education (yeah!).  So maybe this parable is also about community -- it only takes 2 to form a small community -- the gardner and his fig tree.  Maybe he should try singing to it, or more importantly get that fig tree a mate!

Saturday, February 27, 2016

Oh, the Prodigal Son . . . Having been raised with a special needs sibling, I can so identify with the elder son.  It seemed the focus was always on MJ, her struggles and every little achievement.  I never had the grace and gift of being the baby.  Big Sister is so overrated!  I struggle to this day with feelings of jealousy when I judge someone or something else is garnering more than their fair share of attention.  It has been easier to learn and to accept that nothing I do can overcome the sorrow that MJ's disability caused my mom, even though mom tried so hard to present it as a 'joy' and gift to our family.
With distance and time (and the gift of maturity and Tom's love!)  I have come to understand that this gospel is about Redemption.  God loves us all as equals.  In His eyes I can be the baby, I can be loved as the jealous sister and I don't have to make up for everything that MJ could not do to be acceptable.  That mindset does not come naturally, though.  I have to mentally work through it every time I hear this gospel.  I have to remind myself that God loves me and rejoices every time I turn to Him.
Mom

Thursday, February 25, 2016

Friday February 26th (Day 16)

Readings

I am struggling a little with these readings for today. This has been an incredibly difficult week, its one that I wish would just go away. I have found it hard to focus on anything positive or life giving. The ironic part is that I have been teaching Gandhi so one would think that I would feel surrounded by positive sentiments and emotions. Yet I have just felt helpless and frustrated. While I like the final message of the Gospel, the violence that occurs before we reach it does not sit well with me. One could almost interpret the message as if though violence and death are justified in the face of injustice or within the threat of injustice. These people are worthy of the kingdom because they produce the fruit, but how are they any better than the scribes and Pharisees? Even if Jesus was trying to make a point, is violence ever justified? I get that the violence intentional and unintentional that society has laid upon the laboring class by far out scales the violent actions of these workers, and yet I find myself not desiring either image.  I just which we could live in a world were violence in not the most sought out option.

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Tuesday February 23rd (Day 13)

Readings

"Practice what you preach." I believe this to not only be the message of these readings but the underlying message at the root of Christianity. I am using Gandhi right now in my classes for content. This is the first time I have ever used his speeches and I am working alongside the social studies teachers who are teaching the kiddos about India at the moment. I have to admit I am having a lot of fun. The kids are absolutely blown away by his message and they can't believe that he actually practiced what he preached. Unfortunately I don't believe a lot of leaders in today society have the kind of courage and tenacity of Gandhi. I do however feel that Pope Francis is attempting to model just that and I believe that is why people love and admire him. Catholics and Non-Catholics alike. I also believe that is why people dislike him and look to find reasons to distrust him and the Church. I think we have to constantly model kindness, love, generosity, acceptance, and positivity. I know I am ahead of the curve than most of my peers only because I had such incredible exemplars growing up. I am forever amazed at how much love mom and dad poor into their medical practice, how medicne is a calling and vocation rather than a paycheck and how the paycheck comes in many forms other than money for the sake of the patients needs. The community is lucky to have this kind of example to follow and I don't think I am the only one to notice!

Wednesday, February 17, 2016

Thursday, February 18th (Day 8)

Readings:
EST C:12, 14-16, 23-26
PS 138
MT 7: 7-12

The message that is singing out loud and clear to me is: "ask for help, and you will receive." This is something that has never been easy for me. I feel like when I am asking for help I am admitting that I can't do something on my own and that would mean that I am weak. This has been a huge struggle this year as I have undertaken. Somedays I feel like I am hard wired for failure because I would rather fall on my face than admit I can't do something on my own, like I have something to prove. This kind of mentality is so messed up and in the end everyone loses. I think the message here is that asking for help is a strength. Its an opportunity empower others. A community is so much stronger when all talents are being embraced. Its the humility piece that I need to accept and embrace. I have to trust that when I step aside and let someone else take the reigns, that better results will come forward. This is not an easy piece of pie for me to swallow.

Wednesday February 17th (day 7)

Readings
JON 3: 1-10
PS 51
LK 11: 29-32

Well I have to admit, these readings don't quite give me the "warm and fuzzies" the way many have at this point in the Lenten journey. But I think that's okay and kind of the point. There are so many things that happen in this world because of humanities short comings. So much pain and suffering, caused by greed, anger, and power. I wonder what Jesus would say now, with the violence that has enveloped our culture? What can we do to resurrect the love and the vision of the Gospels when so much hatred and violence is done in the name of religion? I think we have to take things one small step at a time. Focus on making a positive impact of human connection each day and hope that the impact will spread. Put out the fire of hatred and violence with love and solidarity. In this case I think God's presence in the people of God is best represented through our actions rather than our words. We can make it our mission to make our lives and the lives of those that surround us positive, knowing and trusting that if we do, then we leave this world leaving a positive impact rather than a negative.

Monday, February 15, 2016

Monday, February 15 (Day 5)

Readings
LV 19: 1-2, 11-18
PS 19
MT 25: 31-46

I can't help but smile when I read MT 25 "our wedding Gospel." I know it was a non traditional choice for a wedding reading but it is so grounded in my understanding of God, faith, and Community I couldn't imagine our ceremony any other way. In the early days of Mike's and my relationship we had countless discussions and heated conversations regarding economics and the state of our country. Mike has always seen this issue from a pragmatic/numbers based vantage point. His education was centered on numbers, statistics, and practical reasoning. I have always come at it from the social justice vantage point, the idealist who sees people instead of numbers. While his argument was and is for a free trade economy, mine has always been for a fair trade economy. My senior year I elected to take an economics class in the hopes of gaining a lexical understanding of his view. 10 years later, we now laugh at the way in which we both dug our heals in and the passion in which we defended our standpoint. In truth I don't think either model "fixes" the problem, and I think both models are wanting the same result: an economy in which all participants have an equal share and opportunity to prosper. Free trade is supposed to create an open playing field, fair trade desires to balance the playing field so the "have nots" have a fighting chance against the "haves." Both of us feel that Bernie Sanders is the one candidate that speaks to both of our economical vantage points. I am blown away that people can read the laws of Leviticus and still argue that the death penalty is justice, and that immigration laws need to be stricter. That they could listen to the Gospel and still side with Trump's hateful tones toward any American who is not white and in the elite. It boggles my mind to hear people say that they fear Trump and find him crazy but will still vote for him if he is the party candidate because they are faithful to the party! We have become the blind and are willing stumbling over the blocks put in place by our own complacency and ignorance. Since when is it un-American to dream for a better America? To hope for a world where all people are equal. We as a people of God have lost sight of the Kingdom, and we as the People of God are the only ones capable of building the world in which God envisioned.

Sunday, February 14, 2016

Sunday, February 14th (Day 4)

Readings
DT 26: 4-10
PS 91
ROM 10: 8-13
LK 4: 1-13

I find that my mind is in a couple different places today. While reflecting on the first reading I found myself stewing on the emotions of gratitude and love that were shared not only yesterday for Addy's birthday party, but throughout this entire year. Mike and I have been so humbled by the movement of the spirit through the community and are tickled by the amount of affection and love that has been bestowed upon Addy and us. We were talking last night after she had gone to bed and we were reflecting on the year, especially this time last year as we were nearing her due date. We both agreed that in the days leading up to her birth there was this strong sense of anxiety and anticipation, mixed with excitement and fear. We felt like we were diving into the unknown; unsure of what this journey would look like and how we would get through it. To do this day I am amazed at how willing people are to offer their help but also how quickly and easily people fall in love with Addelyn and with our family. Admittedly there have been times throughout the year when I have felt completely and utterly alone, in the dark and helpless, the majority of the time I have felt supported and surrounded by love.

When I was reading the second reading and the Gospel I found myself thinking about the political future of this country. There is so much of Bernie Sander's words and vision for this country that I find comforting and desirable, but I also can't help but feel a little hopeless. Hopeless that he would get elected and hopeless that if he were to get elected that he would be able to enact the kind of change that he is calling for. People of this country are intoxicated with power and power is always connected with money. I am amazed by the number of Catholics and other religious that find issue with Sander's message when he words echo so clearly the words of the pope and the early Church. His vision was God's vision for the Israelites, which is why I think people feel so threatened. We become so attached to our current state of comfort and sense of security, that we become blinded to the needs of others. We buy into the "bootstrap" mentality and turn our back on the oppressed, justifying our own comfort with a sense of righteousness because we worked hard to earn it and those in need got there through laziness and poor choices. I even hear it in school, teachers justify poor test scores and failing grades with student's laziness and behavior. This of course in the easier than the alternative of looking closely and one's personality choices and role in the situation. It takes work, dedication, and humility to build the kingdom that God envisioned. I think all we can do is keep this images in sight, work for the good of others and forgive ourselves and others when we fall short.

Saturday, February 13, 2016

Saturday February, 13th (Day 3)

Readings
IS 58: 9B-15
PS 82: 1-2, 3-4, 5-6
LK 5:27-32

I have to say I am really loving the Isaiah readings this Lenten season! I just feel this pull back to the basics and the heart of what our Christian values preside. I feel that our current Pope is an excellent example of the kind of leadership these readings are pushing upon us. People often share their love of our pope but then claim that his ideas for the Church are often so radical, and my first reaction is to say he's not radical he's just a living witness of the Gospel. But a I reflect further I am inclined to say that in some ways he is radical just as Isaiah, Moses, and Jesus. I think the "radicalness" of their word is that they call us to be good people, without expecting anything in return. It would be easy to read these readings and assume that if you do good, you deserve good, but the problem with this sentiment is that our world and our culture does not provide an environment in which that is possible. Bad things will always happen whether it is to good or to bad people. A new thought that inspired me this time that I hadn't necessarily thought is that the "light" that is promised to us when we adopt these radical ways of loving others, feeding the needy, and helping the afflicted, isn't a promise that good with come to us, but rather is it the gift of witness of movement of Agapic love through the community. When we give of ourself to others we are working toward a better kingdom. When we do this without an expectation of reward we model the same kind of selfless love God enacted when She gave us free will.

Thursday, February 11, 2016

Friday February 12th (Day 2)

Readings
Is 58: 1-9A
PS 51: 3-4, 5-6AB 18-19
MT 9: 14-15

I love the progression of the first reading! I believe it speaks volumes for the Church and many of the issues in society today. The beginning of the reading is so focused on the "me" in religion. And in the second half you have a shift to the "other" or the "you." It is so easy to get caught up in self importance; which blinds us from being able to truly participate and openly love as a People of God. We lose sight of our role in building the kingdom.

I have really struggled with this over the past year, especially in the work place. I have been so focused on the "burden" I feel I have carried, that I have lost sight of the larger picture. I have failed to bring a sense of humility to the service of others. As a part of the building leadership team I have participated in numerous conversations surrounding desired culture shifts in our school, and I have preached a desire for team work, yet I haven't fully bought into what I have preached. Our society thrives on competition and the comparing of one entity to another, we're obsessed with becoming number one and often disregard any casualties that might get in our way. I think these readings are calling us to put aside our own personal "woes" and egos so that we are able to assist in building the Kingdom. If we seek the presence of God in others and work to build and develop relationships with all the members within the community, we all become a stronger more complete vision of Church. I think this is one of the true challenges of the People of God and definitely something I pray to work on and embrace this Lent.

Wednesday, February 10, 2016

Thursday, February 11th (Day 1)

Readings:

DT 30: 15-20
PS 1: 1-2, 3, 4, and 6
LK: 9: 22-25

There are a couple of things that stuck out to me from these readings. The first was a set of lines from Deuteronomy.

If, however, you turn away your hearts and will not listen,
but are led astray and adore and serve other gods,
I tell you now that you will certainly perish;
you will not have a long life

I find these lines very fitting for the beginning of the lenten journey. I really liked Fr. Lucas' analogy of the GPS or compass for the purpose of lent. It creates an image of God that I find to be very appealing and comforting for me. I have never liked the image of god as puppet master, nor do I believe in a universe in which our future is predestined. But I do find comfort in the idea of a "cosmic pull" or a force that is beckoning us toward the greater good. Lent is a time for us to simplify our lives, remove distractions so that we are more open and able to feel the pull toward the greater good. It is easy to be "led astray" by the distractions of daily life and the comforts of modern living. In one of my Theology classes in college we talked about the idea that it is within our human nature to seek the greater good. We often mistake the pull for the need of material things, or praise or awards We set our sights on a goal and push to achieve it. Often people find that upon achieving their goal their is a feeling of emptiness or disappointment; a "let down" from all the focus and drive and push toward the end point. What we don't realize is that what we are often seeking is the completion of our self or that connection to the greater good. So this lent I hope I can take a step back and focus more on the People of God, on developing relationship, and building community, rather than giving in to the distractions of daily routine, taking the time to listen to the "recalculations" of the route to reconnect with faith and with the pull toward the greater good.